I’ve finally settled into my new place! I’m living in an area of town that isn’t fantastic, but it’s not awful either. We also don’t have internet yet, hence the few days break in posts. I’m writing this one at work.
While driving to my place, I saw this truck loaded with stuff (the picture to the right is the actual truck and I even managed to blur the license plate). I passed them on the next four-lane road, then decided to take a different route to my new home than I usually do…. And, well, I kind of got lost.
There are three roads that go by the same name, but one section does not connect to the section I live on… Fantastic. I finally made it there by backtracking.
And the guys in the truck were parked in the next driveway. As in, they live in the other half of our duplex. Awesome.
When I passed them, it wasn’t just a simple pass either: I glanced up into the truck and the driver looked directly back at me. We made serious eye contact. Neither of us was rude or even acknowledged the eye contact. And not that he isn’t way sexy, he totally is. Which is why I sped up more, to break the awkward eye contact. I parked across the street from my place because my roommates had already taken the two spots in our driveway and hoped the truck neighbors didn’t recognize my car. I definitely had some face palm going on when I pulled up.
My second night at the new place, I was really craving chocolate. So my new roommate and I decided to run to the store to get fondu items. While there, I fell in love with the smell of doughnuts. I almost bought some, but thankfully my roommie stopped me… and introduced me to the best doughnut shop in the state!!
I am stunned by the deliciousness of the doughnuts there. I bought a dozen doughnut holes for $1.00!! (One dollar!!!). The best prices and such good calorie-filled yumminess! I am salivating just thinking about them. I had ten of my doughnut holes and half of my raspberry filled bearclaw. I also paid in coins. Lafeen’s only takes plastic if you purchase more than $5 worth of goods. So I grabbed my car meter change and bought $3.10 worth of doughnuts. Yum.
Yes, I started eating them in the car.
And I somehow managed to lose one pound this week with calorie zig zagging and burning so many calories moving. I overate about three days in a row. The first day it didn’t seem so bad because of the calorie burn. Then the last two days, after I was done moving boxes, I’ve managed to overeat my 1528 goal for a total of 1900-2100 calories per day.
I’m disappointed in myself for not sticking to my nutrition plan. Without access to the internet, I get this attitude that nothing really counts. Then I start entering it in SparkPeople the next day, or a couple days later, and I’m sure I’ve forgotten half of what I shoved in my face. So really I’m underestimating the amount of food I’ve had.
My goal is to someday not be attached at the hip to my calorie counter. At this point, it’s not feasible. I really need that little addition machine to tell me when I’m about to make a big mistake. Without it, I have a free-for-all attitude with any food that I want.
Even today, when I’ve got internet and I’ve planned my lunch, I still overate. My stomach feels huge. I had a pineapple raspberry sweet bread, then a tofurky sandwich, then Cheez Its and Trader Joe’s mini cookies. I am stuffed. The lunch came to 656 calories, double the amount of a normal meal for me. Plus I had some white chocolate with my Eggo and syrup breakfast this morning.
I’m feeling pretty down about this. Just disappointed in myself for giving in to the voice in my head that says that cookie is really not that bad.
Wish me luck in the week to come!